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some plural musings
May. 1st, 2025 01:44 pmthe more i think about it, a lot of us really did start out as soulbonds... even if we did permanently stay, change considerably, split more, etc..
it's an interesting line of thought to go down. i always felt like there was quite a few ways i was spiritually lacking in these days and needed to recconect with. this could be one of those.. i just need to find a way to dissociate less when it happens, i think. hyperfocus is a rude motherfucker in particular just because when i want to do lots of reading, it goes right on. i definitely need to read less at a time and do it in more frequent bursts.. maybe i can challenge myself to finish some things within a set amount of time. that sounds good, actually. i never get to read enough these days.
it also makes me wonder what exactly makes a soulbond.. do others have this experience with the integration and splitting? probably not. can i even call myself a soulbond anymore? i certainly *want* to be called that. it feels right. but.. maybe i lost the right to or something. i dunno. i'm honestly not educated enough on community matters to tell if permanent-stayers are over or underrepresented. maybe a bias isn't present.
whatever it is, i'll have to think about it more. and probably strip some complexes off myself eventually.
it's an interesting line of thought to go down. i always felt like there was quite a few ways i was spiritually lacking in these days and needed to recconect with. this could be one of those.. i just need to find a way to dissociate less when it happens, i think. hyperfocus is a rude motherfucker in particular just because when i want to do lots of reading, it goes right on. i definitely need to read less at a time and do it in more frequent bursts.. maybe i can challenge myself to finish some things within a set amount of time. that sounds good, actually. i never get to read enough these days.
it also makes me wonder what exactly makes a soulbond.. do others have this experience with the integration and splitting? probably not. can i even call myself a soulbond anymore? i certainly *want* to be called that. it feels right. but.. maybe i lost the right to or something. i dunno. i'm honestly not educated enough on community matters to tell if permanent-stayers are over or underrepresented. maybe a bias isn't present.
whatever it is, i'll have to think about it more. and probably strip some complexes off myself eventually.
